today has been an odd day. ups and downs. but right now, it just seems to be going downhill ...
-sigh- . the day started off alrite i guess, woke up with my eyes still feeeling tired. as usual. crawled out of bed and then went to take a shower to wake myself up - obviously it didn't really work.

concert band today was pretty good ... managed to play ok. i think i've found my form again. well, seems like everything after that went completely downhill ! was sooo low on energy for practically the whole day (and it didn't help that my bag weighed a ton to AND from school). fell asleep in human bio today. we were watching some video on the brain and i was bored as hell. bored and sleepy. i even had a dream in that 10 mins that i fell asleep, can't remember what it was about but i woke up all of a sudden. felt slightly better after that. but once i stepped into the econs classroom, i just felt all crappy again. couldn't really concentrate and i think nothing that mr flexman said actually sunk in. and as usual, the period went by soooooo slowly.

went to the boarding house after school with marsia cos we were supposed to meet some wesley guys. apparently i'm taking one of them to the ball. so yes, i now have a partner ! his name's brian lee ... i think he's korean. he sort of reminds me of one of those j-rock dudes, i'm not quite sure. but he's one of those who likes to be noticed, i think. lol. but yeah, he agreed to go and he was quite nice. he has a car too (... ooo ...). so yeah. only got home at like 5.30pm or so, and i think mum was abit annoyed. whether it was with me though, i'm not entirely sure.

i thought tonite would be good cos there was singing rehearsals in church and they usually make me feel a whole lot better. we rehearsed nice songs tonite, so that was good. well, just as i thought the night was going to be a better one, i got an sms from wilson. he said that the soccer trip to perth has been CANCELLED. yes, cancelled. and why?! because the coach's wife has just been hospitalised. i hope she's ok, apparently it's quite serious. so pray for her and the coach you guys. but i think wilson didn't really take the bad news all that well, he's feeling very angry and upset at everything right now. i'm kind of disappointed too, cos i was really really looking forward to him coming to perth (like duh). but i guess shit happens, unfortunately. well i think god is kind of sick of hearing me telling him that i miss wilson so much and that i want to see him, so hopefully something good will happen. eventually.

anyhooo, this has been a prettyyy long and rather depressing entry. i'm sorry you guys. i'll try to be happier in my next entry ! kind of looking forward to tmr cos my trumpet lessons are starting again ... so i think that's why i've always loved thursdays. hmmm.

excuse me while i go cry/sing/be angry at the world ...