i know i just went for confession but ...

-little sisters can be so annoying (yes, i know . i'm annoying too.)
-mushy couples disgust me.
-people who put the toilet seat covers down get on my nerves, cos that means i have to touch the gross public toilet seat cover in order to use it.
-it's not fair when you see a really good looking guy with a really ugly girl and vice-versa (makes you wonder doesn't it?)
- some year 8s, 9s, 10s, 11s can be so irritating cos they think they're god's gift to the world and not to mention, extremely brilliant at whatever it is they do.
-those noisy/screechy girls who sit near us during lunch/recess should learn to be more quiet, then perhaps they will be more tolerable.
-people who talk continuously throughout a lesson, esp when you're trying to listen to the teacher.
-this particular person who sits in my group during english should really start contributing during group discussions. (but then again, nobody can be blamed for being so dim with this perpetual look of ignorance on her face.)
-clingy ppl should learn to be less clingy.
-nobody should want to hyphenate their last name with their husband's (e.g. smith-koh) see what i mean ? it sounds AND looks bad no matter what .
-girls who plan their future with a guy they've only known for about 3 weeks are just so ... naive . (i won't mention any names here. *cough*)
-seeing couples annoy me : for the simple reason that it reminds me too much of not having wilson here with me .
-some people should just learn to accept that they're REALLY not as good or pretty as they think they are .


hmm well , i think that's about all i feel like complaining about at this present moment . just really had to get all that out of my system .

talk about sillly ...
woke up this morning and sat on my bed for at least 10 minutes trying to recall why i was up so early . after a while i realised that it WASN'T sunday and that i had swing band to go to , hence the alarm going off at like 6.10am .
ah yes and recently , i've been feeling hungry all the time ... but when it comes to meal times i just don't have the mood to eat . i dunno why . so i just eat anyway and end up making myself feel sick . but if i don't eat properly then i get really really hungry . hmm . weird .

anyhoo , time to try starting on my econs research report due on thursday . i think this time i will try to be organised and actually start early . lol . i'm TRYING ok .

i just want to be happy and content with life . it's just a little difficult right now . there's just so many 'what ifs' going through my mind , wondering how things might have been if i did this or did that .

and also, sometimes i just want to be single again . i'd like to know if things are less complicated that way ?? but in case you're wondering , no , i'm not regretting my choice to have a bf . and no way in hell am i regretting having wilson as my bf . cos i'm really glad that i have him , although i don't know for how long more right now with all this shit happening . if you're reading this , i'm SO sorry . i never meant to screw everything up like this .

just not thinking about all of this right now ... and i've been successful . need to concentrate on the most important - school. cos i really want to do well and so far, things aren't looking all too good . o and thanks you guys for giving me sound advice and all (you know who u all are) : ) really helped .

*yay*
i went shopping today at the 8 hour sale and i bought stuff !! : ) stuff meaning 2 tops and some chocolate-chip-flavoured lip gloss . as gross as that probably sounds , it was more of an impulse buy and i felt that i just HAD to get it . lol . but yes , 2 tops !! i have new clothes . finally . this isn't the end of my shopping though , i'm going to continue saving during these last two weeks of school so that i will be able to buy moreee stuff during the holidays !

i feel kind of happy/relieved now .
so tina , if you're reading this ... please go check your email . any input is greatly appreciated and probably vital . thank you !!

so yes , todayy was quite a good day i must say . managed to convince mum to let me go out ... giving the excuse that tina's having a crisis and she needs company . but the shopping trip today was needed so that i could take my mind off things . : ) thanks for being awesome company , tina . met up with louie and vic too ... walked around trying to help vic pick out some new clothes but he didn't end up buying anything .

i'm just really happy with the stuff i bought . and i'm also happy that tmr's weather will not be too cold , so that means i can wear one of my new tops ! ah yes , and i'd like to congratulate grace on being a sheep (*you're a sheep, bah bah bah bah*) cos she joined friendster . lol . : )

well since practically everyone on my msn list is away ... i might as well take this opportunity to go do some hw . haven't been able to do any at all last night and today (gee, i wonder why) . i wish i could just tell all the distractions to go away and stop distracting me .

haven't blogged in a while, but mostly cos i haven't been in the mood ... hmm . not that i don't have stuff to talk about . buuuut hmm . i dunno, just been kind of in a contemplative mood recently . and all that has made me think about ALL sorts of stuff ... esp stuff i don't really want to talk/think about . -sigh-

anyhooo, i shall end here . cos i have nothing constructive to say. lol . perhaps another time ...

and so tonight is the night that the internet connection decides to be a bitch . juuuust great . on top of all of that, microsoft word is also screwing up and making the computer hang . so now i can't do my stupid RE assignment properly . you know what, fuck . it . it's ONLY RE.

anyway, i was actually in an incredibly good mood today . for once . i was actually happy . haven't actually felt happy like this in a really really long time so it felt good . i'm so happy that not even annoying technology can ruin my mood : )

well today we had pe ... and yes, bowling . something which i totally suck at . today was a really bad day for bowling cos i hardly got anything . hahah . even this 2 yr old boy in the next lane, alex, got a better score than i did ! but he was soo cute ... he had brown curly hair and all . *awww* he's gonna grow up to be one hot guy . (and no, i'm not perving on little boys . i'm not miss crystal pher. lol.)

okaee then . i think i should try to start working on my RE once again . hopefully the comp won't hang and i'll get through at least half of the stupid report .

it's just one of those days ...

it's 40 degrees celcius out there, there's warm "wind" blowing and even if you had the fans on inside the classroom, it would only be circulating the hot air around the room .

so yes . that was basically my day ... nothing too exciting really. just trying not to think about the heat, cos not thinking about it makes it more bearable . was just slightly annoyed cos i just had to get my period today ... and you know how annoying it is to get your period when the weather's all hot and stuff. *mutters to self*

o ! o ! but i did get my econs test back (you know, the really terrible one i mentioned in my earlier entries?) ... yes, and i failed . as predicted . BUT i didn't fail as badly as i thought i would've . i honestly thought that i'd get single-digit results, but no . so *phew* . still, it's no cause for celebration and i really should work harder on my econs . i think we might start having study group sessions and stuff, where we will really study and not muck around.

anyhoo . i think i'll go now . need to start on my RE (religious education) assignment . going to try to complete it before the due date . ha .

so yesterday was a pretty long day ...
left the house around 10-ish for my eye appointment and then went to meet grace at garden city . the silly girl was late . so i just sat on the chairs outside some electrical appliances watching (silent) tv. it didn't really help that they were showing music videos ... so all i could do was sit there and watch george michael mouth the words to 'amazing' .

well she finally came then we went to have breakfast at BB's. lunch actually . ok so we had breakfast for lunch at BB's, but it was pretty yummy. louie just sat there not eating cos he wasn't hungry ... he started complaining about how weird we were and how we should eat real lunch . lol . but we weren't really listening to him. obviously.

when tina arrived, we went to watch 'butterfly effect' ... i can't really make up my mind - whether i like the movie or not. hmm . well i must say that it's alot better than i expected it to be, but the movie seemed to drag on after a while and i started wondering when it might end . mostly cos some bits were sad and twisted and i felt really sorry for the guy, evan.

then it was about 3 something and we still had plenty of time to kill before the party so we stopped by k-mart, cos tina wanted to get some deoderant . marie was working at that time so louie and i talked to her while waiting for tina to get her deoderant . after that we decided to leave garden city and headed to tina's house ! had some ice cream ... and we watched a bit of 'my sassy' girl - that korean movie . my gawd . it got really boring after a while and we fell asleep . then we all woke up and watched 'sister act 2: back in the hood' (or something like that). yes yes, stupid movie, but the songs are cool o k. hahah .

we watched the finale, where the st. francis choir sang at that competition cos we liked the song (we also sang along. hey! that rhymed!). then we left for the party , and still, we were extremely early . lol . hung around the pool and took some stupid pictures around nick's house . (i.e. posing with exercise equipment in the gym, silly pictures by the pool and with the roses)

had pizza for dinner (stuffed crust !! finally my craving has been satisfied !!). then just sat around talking, watching ppl get chased round the pool and then seeing them get thrown/pushed in . lol . i just realised how easily amused guys are . even shooting water at ppl with water guns entertains them . there were water bombs, water guns ... lol. and most of us also got wet when ppl got pushed into the pool . hmm .

spent the rest of the night playing mahjong, daidee and blackjack (which eventually became a drinking game) . watched ppl play silly drinking games and getting drunk . was quite funny cos i think there was only one guy who was really really drunk, so he talked funnier than usual (cos he already had this weird lisp. might have been cos of retainers or something.)

so yes. that was my saturday . quite eventful . now i'm quite tired and it's a little too hot for my liking ... o yes, and hw ! there's still plenty of that to be done .

it's been a REALLY long week ... really long .
but yes, it's all over !!
let's see ...

on sunday night, i had quite a serious panic attack cos i realised how much hw i had due on monday ... so yes . i ended up staying up till about 3.30am finishing ALL the work that was due the next day. sent wilson many panicky msgs with many 'fucks' in them .

then monday came and i think that was the day of the tests - accounting and econs . see, i tried to block them out of my memory so much that i really can't remember if that really was the day .. lol . but anyway, let's assume that i'm correct . soo yes, i was completely NOT prepared for the tests cos 1) i had stayed up all night trying to finish the actual hw and 2) by the time i finished doing the hw i was so tired and i just wanted to sleep . well the econs test went really badly anyway ... it was soooooooo terrible . ppl who studied for it said it was difficult . lol . so go figure. but i think that was the very first time that i had actually left sooo many questions blank in a test . anyhoo, it's over so i'm just glad . the accounting test wasn't too bad ... i got 71% for it.

the rest of the week was pretty average ... nothing else happened . not much anyway . o yes, there was the inter-house public speaking competition on thurs nite ... YES i decided to go ahead with it . : ) didn't go too badly . and obviously Sam got in to the semis , but she was really good ... as usual. i think jo managed to get into the semis too . so go sam ! and jo ! and whoever else got in ... even though they probably won't read this .

and today (tonight, rather) is friday ! joy of joys ! didn't really want to go to school today, but i thought since i'm going to the party tmr ... i'll just go to sch. feeeling ALOT better though . *grin* my voice is back ! woohoo ! so everyone will once again have to tolerate hearing it . *evil laugh*

anyhoo, going to try out the new shaving cream/wax (?) we got . tried some on my legs this morning but i seemed to have missed a spot . lol . so goodbye all ... !

*p.s. INCUBUS is playing in perth at this very moment !! *ahh* i wish i could be there ... but the tixx were soo expensive . obviously . i'm sure that it's terrific . damn . (brandon boyd - i like.)

you see, i thought i was getting better. but apparently not. well the stupid flu bug seems to have come back, and it has hit me even worse than before. -sigh- so now i can't stop sneezing and i can't stop blowing my nose. not only does it feel like i might rupture a blood vessel (or two) in my nose, it's also sore ! aaaargh . so darn irritating ok . hate being sick. oo k, maybe i was sort of hoping that i would lose my voice in the days leading up to the public speaking competition on thurs nite ... but i said lose my VOICE, not have a really bad cold .

well anyway, i've decided to go ahead with the public speaking on thurs nite. i mean, i'm only participating so that the house will get points (yes, i'm being house-spirited. for once.). in the midst of writing my speech, still . hopefully it won't turn out too badly ... even though i'm not in it to win, i don't want to get up there with a really crappy speech. cos that will be embarrassing .

really hope i'm well before saturday cos i want to go the movies !! and i want to go to nick's party !! aargh . *please* let me be well by then .

what a lovely start to the weekend ... !
i'm sitting here in front of the computer, eating a really sweet, juicy nectarine (slightly firm. just the way i like them!) and i just had a really nice jelly donut too .
let's see, so why is today such a great day ? why you ask ? WELL let me tell you why .

i'm extremely proud of myself cos i actually woke up at 5.45am to go to school for cross-country training . you see, jo was going with her sister and she didn't want to be left alone cos jayne (jo's sister) is really really fast runner. so i agreed to keep her company and i must say, i felt quite good after that early morning exercise . they even provide breakfast after that ! (food ... mmm ...)

school itself was ok as well . the day seemed to pass by quite quickly and most of the lessons were relaxed too ... didn't really do much. oo yes, and i'm so glad that we didn't do any probability questions in applic today ! mr yeang decided to give us a break cos i think he was getting a bit bored and overwhelmed with that chapter . SO we did some stuff on statistics - i.e. mean, median and mode . oo k, i still really hate doing stuff like that ... but hey, at least it doesn't involve probability or counting techniques !

and then school was over . finally . headed over to garden city to get the michael buble tickets !! i'm going !! i'm going !! except that it's really fully-booked so i only managed to get tickets quite far behind . but it doesn't matter. all that matters is that i'm going to see mr buble LIVE . *squeals with excitement*

o and while at garden city, i saw attilio standing outside a shop looking absolutely cute . as usual . haha . yes, so i just had to msg tina right away to tell her that i saw him, and that he shaved - about time .

looking forward to this evening cos grace and i will be going to hungry jacks for a long-awaited, much-needed bitching session . can't wait . sooo many things/people i need to vent and bitch about .

anyhoo, i shall be off . need a shower . i stink . i think . (hey that rhymed!)

i bid thee farewell ...

oo k i'm really tired .. but i just had to come blog .
well you see, just got back from watching 'the passion'. i can safely say that no other film has made such an impact on me before. mel gibson did an excellent job with the film and i strongly urge you guys to go watch it. the images were just really powerful and i could hear lots of ppl in the cinema crying. but i think the scene that really made me cry was the 'scourging at the pillar' ... and those high priests and soldiers really made me feel angry (cursing and swearing at them in my head) . hmm . oo yes, i'm also wondering what the name of the guy playing satan is, cos he did a pretty good job at looking really creepy (and not to mention pale and eyebrow-less).

so anyway, i think i'm going to go now ... exhausted . and i have to wake up early for concert band tmr .

ahhh ... i'm so tired i want to cry ... = (
finished math tuition a while ago and i tell you, the stuff we're doing now is really getting on my nerves ... !! argh . stupid counting techniques, venn diagrams and probability - most of which involves lots of lateral thinking, common sense and logic (some things things which i really either cannot do well or don't have). really can't wait till all this is over. well apparently this is the hardest that applic will get this year, so *hoooray*. there's a test coming up either next week or the week after, and i'm so not going to do very well . i'm just super annoyed cos THIS is the very reason why i decided to do applic and not discreet ...

anyway, going to the movies later on to watch 'the passion of christ'. really can't wait because 1) this will be the first family outing we've had since hmm . since forever . 2) the movie is supposed to be really good, but gory and 3) i've been wanting to watch this movie since i heard about it. and no, i'm not deeply religious ... i just thought that it would be interesting to watch cos mel gibson directed it and also cos it's in latin (i think).

waiting for dinner now ... i think i'm going to get fatter . dammit . all this tiredness and slight bouts of depression are making me snack. just today i pigged out on sakata crackers, some chocolate sultanas and some sour gummy snakes. ugh.

and now, even though he won't read this ...
(wilson !! get your computer fixed soon please !! it's too hard not being to able to talk to you !!)

hahhaha .

alrite guys !
some new pixx : whaa happen ?
(the ones from sat evening)

so go have a look : ) some of the pixx are really silly .
but for now, i'm off ...
nose feels like it's going to fall off .

I'M GOING TO WATCH MICHAEL BUBLE IN CONCERT !!

ahh!! omg !!
going to go get tickets soon ... but mum just said today that she'd pay for half of the ticket !! soooo since grace and/or tina can't go with me, i decided to ask adit and he said that he'd be happy to go with me . *yay* soo help me pray really really really hard that there'll still be tickets when i go get them some time this week . dont' really want to book online cos they don't provide a seating plan . they used to provide one on the website though, don't know why they changed it .

oo yes . we had oxtail stew with spaghetti for dinner just now ... mmm mmm . soooo damn yummy !

school today went by really quickly actually . and we burnt cds with the pictures from whaa happen's performance the other day . so i'll get those up soon !
anyhoo, got to run . batt's running low on the lap top .

toodles !

oo k yay !!
ALL the ball pictures are finally up .

hot autumn night is over !!
i think i should probably stop getting all excited about these kind of things cos i just end up feeling disappointed . lol . yeeap . but don't get me wrong, it was pretty alrite on the whole .

concert band had a shakey start and i must say that it wasn't the best performance that we could give ... it also didn't really help that we couldn't hear each other properly . o yes, and tuning our instruments properly would've helped too ! hmm . sometimes i just wish ms. oram would tune us properly ... it just really irritates me when she says, "you know what to do." - cos we usually don't .

swing band was better than concert band (sorry guys, but that's what i thought) ... hehe . yeah . the solos went o k . played most of them alrite ... i think . but it was really windy and our stupid dodgy stands kept shaking ... at least we had pegs to hold our music down .

the cbc jazz band is actually pretty good i reckon . they've even recorded cds and stuff . wow . hehe . but they played 'chameleon' ... a song that we TRIED to play. they did a really good job on it though, cos i at least they knew how to play it . and their trumpet players are pretty darn good too !

then came us - WHAA HAPPEN . ahahah . i really wonder when we're all going to get over that ... anyway, yes . that is our band name ... and i s'ppose the point of a band name is that the ppl in the band get the joke and stuff . so yeah . can't actually remember how the name came about ... i think mr k just started saying that . apparently it's some sort of joke with his brother too . so yeah . lol . quite a long story (which i am actually not quite sure of). our performance went quite well ... except the bit that i stuffed up . *doh* felt so dumb after that ... but yeah . just pretended that i didn't do what i did . other than that, it was good . tina took quite a few pictures of us performing .

the last band to go on was 'peace love and all that stuff' . err, they were alrite i guess ... nothing fantastic . didn't really like the stuff that they played ... i think the band that played at our ball was much much better . but o well, that's just me . we danced a bit in the beginning, then after a while the music just became un-dancable . so we just sat around ... talked , took MORE pictures (like that one of the moon that came out looking like a spot) and ate ice cream . o yes, and we also sat around laughing at all the old ppl on the dancefloor . i don't think i've ever seen that many old ppl dancing before ! was quite a terrifying experience actually . esp the part where we got shoved around on the dancefloor by these old blonde ladies who were a little too enthusiastic for my liking .

oo yes, but before all this ... we went to burswood for marsia's bday lunch ! grace and i thought we were slightly late ... but the birthday girl turned out to be the one who came the latest . lol . we all ended up sitting in the hotel lobby waiting for her to call . but we took lots of pictures though ... today was a day for lots and lots of pictures . all kinds . hehe . can't wait to get them from tina . we took soooooooooooo many !

went to the city for a while and then made our way back to tina's place - where we actually did work . well we as in grace and i, tina on the other hand, was on the computer talking to ppl . *tsk* tina, *tsk* .

soooooo anyway, that was my day ! hmm yeah . and apparently philippa found my blog ! i dunno how . strange though . hehe .

i'm bored ... bored i tell you !!

argh .
there's something wrong with the scanner ... it started hanging ! and i've only scanned 14 pixx so far . hmm . anyway, it's friday !! i'm soo happy it's friday !! although today's 2 essays went quite badly i think ... lol. o well .

oo btw, there's a new link : nick's webby .
tis quite a cool website ... except he has this obsession with dragons (why is that?!). but he's quite the talented html-dude. so yeah, worth having a look .

o yarh. he's got funny pictures ... particularly the aquinas ball pictures . *snigger* if you want to laugh at louie (even though you dont know who he is), then go have a look ! they dressed him up and stuff . muaha .

tmr is friday . friday is coming .
i can hardly wait ...

two freakin' essays to do - econs and english .
but i no longer feel the sense of urgency, nor do i feel compelled to do my hw .
well, there goes my lenten promise .
maybe if i actually TRY, that might work.

'hot autumn night' is on sat !!
getting really excited about performing ...
hmm. hope everything goes well . hope the weather's good too ... so that we don't get rained on .

anyway, i should go .
my hw beckons ...

alritey then !
here's some pictures that tina took on her digi cam ...
the link : santa maria ball 2004

*p.s. there should be more on the way ... just be patient ! (i'll probably tell you when i get them up)

just realised that today being the 1st of March, is the first day of autumn !
hmm .
well the weather seems to have cooled down a little ... it's supposed to rain tonite . *whee* i love rain ! esp when it's during the night ... = )

did some work today ... then i decided to paint my toe nails . so not only have i completed most of my hw, i also have nicely painted toe nails ! school tmr - nooo ... !!

boo.