damn . i think i need to expand my social circle . i'm just having one of those moments where i wish i was still in s'pore , cos then at least i have lots of people to call when i feel like going out . there's usually at least one person free anyway .
no offence to my friends here in perth , but everything seems boring to me now . i crave for something more exciting , something fun - which is part of the reason why i can't wait tilll uni starts . at least then there'll be new people to meet and a completely new environment . ok , so i'm feeling just a little nervous . but i'm sure i'll be fine .
i just wonder what happened to : hey , i'm bored so let's go out right now . and then we'd just go out (where are you jo when i need you ?!) . maybe it's just the really long holiday that's starting to take its toll . maybe we've run out of things to do , or maybe we're just tired of being on holiday . hmm . now there's a thought .
ahhhh . i also don't know how long more i can keep the whole 24G thing to myself ... i feel like i might be a blabbermouth and then he'll find out . oh wouldn't that be lovely . actually , not really . the only thing that's stopping me from doing that is the fact that it might wreck our friendship and things will be weird if the so-called feelings aren't reciprocated .
i say so-called because come to think of it , do i really like him ? or am i just saying that i do cos he excels in the 4 criteria . hmm . wouldn't have thought about it until tina mentioned it . maybe it's just that i'm starting to feel a little lonely and would like some intimate company , perhaps that's it . at least then, i'lll be guaranteed of always having someone to talk to about everything ; someone to go out with me when i feel like it . just having someone there for me in general . if only mr nun weren't so unattainable ...
and is it just me , or is everyone around me getting hitched ?! i mean , okae , people have been breaking up too ... but then shortly after , they find someone else . aaargh . it's starting to irritate me . but don't get me wrong , i'm happy for those of you who've found happiness with someone new . i'm just wondering why it's not happening to me . that's all .
feeling rather irritable now , so i think i might go sleep soon or something . i just want to go out dammit ! or just do something other than staying home and bumming around . i think being coooped up at home is starting to get to me . and i haven't had a deep and meaningful conversation with anyone in a really long time ! one of those argh-my-life-feels-like-shit-at-the-moment-so-let's-talk-about-why conversations .
i miss you guys in s'pore !! you guys being : crystal , dyan , denise , teefeenee , jx , si yi , leang , leonard , shann and gillian . if i forgot any names , i'm sorry . but i do still love you :) thanks for being great friends , you guys . i think it's great how no matter how long i've been away , things seem to be really good every time i return for the holidays .
friends like that are hard to come by .